Where Elephants Roam

This morning before I went to school I happened to look out my window and saw a man walking an elephant down the road. An elephant was passing right in front of my house! I think I froze for a minute, then ran to the balcony to see him better. By then, he had almost passed the house already, so I ran downstairs and outside. I could only see his backside by this point, his huge backside. I wish so badly I could have gotten a picture!

I think I forget quite often how cool it is to get to spend time in such an exotic place, elephants treking down the road, palm trees surrounding me, gorgeous birds who perch on my window in the morning and wake me up (really annoying actually. haha), eating this fun fruit called jambakai. And my new favorite thing is to sit on my roof after its cooled off in the evenings to look at everything and to spend time with Jesus. Its so crazy! The house is two stories and there's an extra set of stairs that lead up to the roof, which is flat, so you can just chill up there. (Roof top party!) (Also it gives me a cool understanding of the kind of roof Peter was on in Acts 10).

I have felt for probably the past year or so God really tugging on me to go deeper with Him. I don't really know how to explain it, hopefully if you're reading this you can relate. Its just that I knew He wanted me to come higher, give up more to Him, get deeper in His presence, pray more, be intimate with Him.

I'm very energetic, don't sit still well, am driven and am super passionate. Part of me just fights taking time to rest in His presence, to go deeper with Him, to spend time in prayer wrestling for friends and family, to pray continuously. But I've been feeling that that is what He wants. And coming here has been the cure! I've been driven to Him. The other day when I had the 24 hour time set aside to seeking Him concerning how things have been going here, it ended up being life-changing. Part of me finally gave in to what He's been asking of me.

I still feel energetic, don't sit still well, am driven and am super passionate, but a part of my will that needed to be broken was broken. Its like I finally gave up, finally realized I need Him more than anything else. And that is how I'm able to rest. That's how I can sit still at His feet. That's how I'm constantly in prayer because I feel like I can't make it if I don't pray. I don't know that that could have happened had He not sent me here. And I pray that He'll continue to bring me to and keep me at that place. Part of me is scared to pray that because what I've had to walk through to get to that place is HARD! But I want to stay at this place with Him, so whatever it takes I'll walk through.

John 1:4, "In him was life, and that life was the light of me." Life is only in Him.

And so I find that the roof is an amazing spot to go to just "give in" and be with Jesus, find my life in my Savior. I choose to stop fighting my selfishness, climb to the roof, and just rest in Him. And hopefully I'll spot another elephant from up there. :)