Friday, November 18, 2011

Awkard, But Promising

Well, I arrived in India! I have so many things going through my brain right now; I'm not sure where to begin. For starters, I'll describe how I feel. I don't feel at all like I did last time I was here. I'm sure that's largely due to the culture shock I experienced here in '08, which this time I don't really have because I know basically what to expect. The constant noise of car horns, the smell of curry, not being suprised at people peeing on the side of the road, seeing Hindu gods scattered around the town, hearing the chantlike music playing from Muslim mosques. These seem strangely familiar to me. The crowds, the constant brushing up against someone when you're in a public area, is also strangely famliar.
However, there are some things that will take some adjusting. I'm already seeing myself having to push aside things that would be awkward in my culture and know that its normal here. A great example of this is being pushy. You'll get trampled if you're not kind of "rude". If you actually want to get off a bus, you better shove someone aside or you literally will never exit. haha. Or when the pastor's son brings some food over and is barely talking, making me wonder if he speaks English fluently. Then he sits and watches me eat the whole meal. He does actually speak English, so at least we talk eventually. haha. I just kind of have to laugh and choose to pretend I don't feel rediculously awkward in those situations.
Anyway, back to how I'm feeling. I am seriously experiencing supernatural peace and rest. Truly "peace that passes all understanding" that Phillippians 4:7 mentions. The Word of God feels so alive to me right now, an anchor. Whenever I want to have a freak out moment because of the length of time I'll be here and physically being alone, something deep in me refuses to. I know I'm where He wants me and tons of people are praying for me; those two things help immensely. And I keep having K-Kountry flashbacks to telling home-sick kampers the cure is to "focus on the right now because you can't go home." Haha. If I try to think six months at a time, I really will spaz out, so I'll just focus on the now and know that God has amazing plans for the future time here.
Overall, I really do feel so assured that this journey is going to be incredible. My God is so faithful. And I'm excited to see what unfolds, awkward moments and all.

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